I first saw the movie 21 grams in wheeler hall, as one of those superb movie things they bring to campus. It has to be one of my favorite movies of all time. It captures so well the raw human experience, and exposes the mess we all are. In the movie, we see a wide spectrum of human behavior, thoughts, and moments. It shows us how the beliefs we once thought were carved in stone, can be shattered in an instant. How our faith in each other has no real basis in anything. And how at some points, for no good reason, we are capable of incredibly moral acts.
There are several scenes in the movie where silence is used so well to capture those moments we are all familiar with. Moments alone in our room, late at night, lights on, and unable to sleep. The incredible loneliness and isolation people feel, when faced with the results of our own actions. And the lengths we go to, to escape this abyss, from drugs, alcohol, sex, and to just plain shouting.
What I love most about this movie, are the actors' abilities to so well capture, what it means to be human: what we become, when stripped away of everything.
It is through this showing of incredible loneliness, that I find comfort. Although life may not always turn out as we'd like, at least at some level, we're all experiencing it together.
Why this movie is available on Hulu.com and is advertised as a "holiday" movie, i'll never really know, but i'm glad it's there.
“As
long as there’s such a thing as time, everybody’s damaged in the end, changed
into something else.It always happens,
sooner or later.”- Miss Saeki in Kafka
on the Shore, pg. 249 by Haruki Murakami.
Despite
it all.
I am
still drowning in your memory.
Finding
myself in the black deep
I
sink further, on a slow descent
Onto
a surface I cannot see.
“Time weighs down on you like an old, ambiguous
dream.You keep on moving, trying to
slip through it.But even if you go to
the ends of the earth, you won’t be able to escape it.Still, you have to go there – to the edge of
the world.There’s something you can’t
do unless you get there.” – Haruki Murakami – Kafka On the Shore
So i'm going to take improv classes at BATS (Bay Area Theatre Sports). They're the biggest improv group, that I know of in the bay area, so it should be a learning experience. But the courses are not cheap, couple hundred for each course.. ikes.. Man i'm spending too much money lately, i have no savings.. i'm going to die when/if i graduate...
During finals depression, (def: the period right before a final exam when you feel all is lost and question why you're here in the first place), I appled to pixar for a programming internship.. it will be interesting to see if they want me...
just a side note: it's amazing how fast things change, and even more amazing how slow I realize it.
i can't believe i'm still in school... man... i messed up. kids, don't do it, go work and be happy, Take back your weekends and enjoy life, don't go down a path friends can't follow...
neway, other than grad school depression, i saw the rice show last night. it was very impressive, especially the film, holy crap. I feel like such an idiot compared to what those kids did....
i'm taking a stab at stand up comedy. Participating in open mics and such.. it's a totally different world... performing in front of total random non-asian, non-college students, straight up adults. I practice in empty lecture halls at night, hoping that the janitor doesn't come in. I've also been doing a lot of research, watching stand up on youtube trying to decipher the difference between a good and bad stand up comic, below is a short analysis.
Stand up comedy is all about delivery and stage presence. 90% of what most comedians say isn't really that funny if you were to simply read a transcript of their act. But when you add in timing and delivery, even the most mundane jokes can be hilarious. The really good stand up comics take their time, they don't rush it, they have complete control of the crowd and know exactly what to do next. The best comics aren't in fact "comics" at all, they don't tell jokes, they don't try to make the audience laugh, instead they get inside the audience's head and transport them into the world of the performer. To have the audience be lost in your own thoughts and words is when you're pretty much baller.
Anyway, until i make it big, i shall be circulating in the underground open mics, trying to find out how to do this ish.
okay, back to studying. i'm learning about lasers. oh yea.. and electrons.
